I got myself up before nine this morning... I was just squeaking in at 8:59 .. however, be that as it may.. I DID IT!
I also got myself and the kids dressed and not only did my hair and put on mascara, I also put on blush and lip gloss.. LOL *pats herself on the back*
I've also begun my deep clean of the house. Today I started on my kitchen. Originally when I set the goal to deep clean one room a week, I had it in my mind that I'd take one day and whiz through it and be done for the rest of the week, but i don't think that's how its going to go now that I've started. I got all the cosmetic things done in the kitchen. The clutter has been removed and a few of the cupboards have been reorganized, but I think I want to do more. I don't want it to feel like my kitchen at the end of this. I want to feel like an entirely new kitchen... so I'm giving myself until Saturday at midnight to purge the cupboards, get everything that I don't want or don't use and pack it into boxes to donate to the thrift store and totally revamp my kitchen... hopefully I'm happy with it at the end of this... then we'll be on to the next room.
I have to say, I'm encouraged after today. Granted, I haven't worked out yet this week... but I don't expect myself to be perfect in all areas. I know this is a process and the whole point in this is to work towards an end goal.. however, by keeping this blog I've been keeping up with one of my goals by default, granted, this is not what I had in mind when I said I wanted to start "writing" again.. for now, I'll cut myself some slack. I've really set some high standards for myself with this, but there were a lot of areas I felt needed addressing. I am tired of just existing and not living. I'm tired of allowing those in my life who have done me wrong to have the victory because they've stolen the very thing that makes me, me.. the essence of who I am.. my will to BE.
With that in mind today I forced myself to sit down and eat two actual meals. It's so hard to do.. I always have meals made for Isaiah, but to sit down and eat something myself... I have this underlying anxiety all the time that kills my appetite and makes the thought of eating slightly revolting, but I don't want to get to the point where I feel a medical intervention would be necessary, so this morning I made myself Eggs in a basket, toad in a hole, and bacon.. (nothing like making your meal gimmicky to make it more appealing) and for dinner, nothing exciting, Chili and Rice.. but I did it.. I ate twice. LOL
Good Job! A little bit at a time is all you need to succeed. You should be proud of yourself for the little things like what you have accomplished today. And can I ask what on earth is "Toad in a hole"? lol
ReplyDeleteLol, it's a European thing, traditionally it is sausage in Yorkshire pudding, but I did it with biscuits..
ReplyDeleteYou know, I have myself on a rotating cleaning schedule, so my house gets deep cleaned once a week but never all the rooms at the same time. For example, monday the kitchen gets it, tuesday the bathroom, wed is house laundry day (sheets, towels ect) and dusting the living room, thurs the girl's laundry and bedroom, friday my laundry and bedroom...and the weekend, I do nothing! :D My house is almost never spotless, but its always clean enough and I don't stress about it when it does get dirty cuz there is never more than 5 days that go by before it's clean again lol (plus I only end up doing about an hour or two of housework a day, as opposed to one day where i'm cleaning from morning till night!)
ReplyDeleteThats not a bad idea.. I've been thinking about trying to work out a schedule hat involves sometime like that.. But also incorporating school into it cause I need more hours in a day!! Lol. So far the only thing my schedule has in it grocery shopping.. I shop every monday.. It's a start. Lol
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