Well, this year I resolved not to make a resolution. I've actually done great at it all month. I haven't slipped up once! However, I have decided that resolving not to resolve is highly over-rated. Sure, I've done great at committing not to commit... but I'm no happier for it. There is no great sense of accomplishment by not accomplishing anything simply because I resolved not to accomplish it. So I've chosen to make a resolution, and just in time for Chinese New Year... so I'm not late afterall!
A friend of mine started a blog about, well a myriad of things, but the central theme is her goals for 2011 and her progress throughout. I have been following her blog and must admit it is what prompted me to start my own. I found it inspired me to actually set goals for 2011 and endeavor to achieve them.
I'm not sure where this blog will take me, as I'm not sure where my year is going, but it will be an interesting journey, I'm sure. My life is rarely boring. I can't say my life has been "fun" as of late, but it is most definitely not boring.
As I was sitting here thinking about what goals I would like to accomplish this year I hit a bit of a wall. I have no idea what I want from this year; what I want from my life; what I want to learn... but it just so happens that I have started this Bible Study called "A Heart Like His" by Beth Moore and the first page was about goals... though totally unrelated to the study, I was able to come up with my own list and I'm sure I'll add to it as the year progresses.
To date my goals are:
1. Spend time doing devotions every day
2. Go to church regularly
3. Begin writing again
4. Get up before nine every day
5. Work out 3 days a week
6. Clean at least one room, deep, per week
7. Finish my Medical Transcription Course
They all seem like small things, but in my life they tend to be mountains. My first goal is one of the things I've found hardest to keep up with. I always have the best of intentions, but unfortunately I lack follow through. Its not that I'm not interested, I am... but I always find an excuse as to why I'm too busy to spend more than five minutes reading. (funny, I have at least 45 minutes to watch my show on TV). After spending time thinking about where I spend time I realized I'm never going to "have" time for any of the important things unless I make them important in my schedule. This was my first goal because, in my experience, when I have been consistent in this area of my life I tend to be happier. I am more at peace with where I am in my life and I have far less anxiety over things. Currently being in a rather hard place in my life, going through a rather nasty custody battle, anxiety is something which is easy to come by. I could use a little peace in my life.
As for my second goal, it ties hand in hand with my first, and for the same reasons. I know that when I go to church regularly I just feel so much better and the weight that tends to sit on my chest everyday doesn't seem as heavy. Also, I think that perhaps by going regularly I'll be able to start making some friends there, and it would be really nice to get to know some people at my church. Having come from a church where I knew everyone from childhood, it can be challenging to go to a church where I know practically nobody.
Third, writing. I used to write all the time. I wrote prose, poetry, ... whatever came to mind. I used it as my outlet, my way of letting go. I used writing to process; to express myself; to grieve; to rejoice.. writing has been a huge tool in my life, but I've lost touch and would like to start again. There's a lot bottled up inside that really needs to get out and writing is an effective medium for me to "let go".
Fourth, getting up before nine... I"m NOT a morning person. Even when Isaiah comes in at some horrible hour I will not really get "up"... I'll get him his breakfast and do all the necessary things, but I won't really wake myself up for any of it. I'll be thoroughly unproductive and in a groggy state for quite a while, not forcing myself to do anything and then I feel awful when my day seems to pass so quickly. I'm tired of feeling like I've lost time or like my life is slipping away from me. Things pass so quickly, I don't want to waste time "sleeping" or just being tuned out.
Five: Working out 3 days a week. I need a few more endorphins flowing through my body these days. I think it would be quite healthy for me to work out. If only to get rid of the headache I've had since the beginning of November. I talked to my doctor about, what I'm beginning to call, my perma-headache and he said its a "tension headache"... "stretch and apply heat"... well so far that particular method of pain management has done jack-all, but I'd like to start working out and see if we can't kick this headache in the pants, I'm SO done having a headache. There is nothing more debilitating than having a headache EVERY SINGLE day.
Six: Clean at least one room, deep, per week. This one will make a huge difference in how I feel about myself and where I live. I always feel hemmed in and cluttered. While I tend to "purge" on a regular basis, there is always a long list of things I "don't have time" to do. I want to spend this year getting them done so that at the end of this major purge I like how my house looks and I don't feel as though I have "junk" shoved in some dark corner somewhere. If I do this once a week, then all the things I've still got cause I'm afraid to get rid of them, eventually I'll have to get rid of cause there'll be nothing else left! lol
Seven: And finally, finishing my course. I've been at it a year and I'm not quite half done yet. I have another year before I"d have to pay to get an extension and I refuse to pay more. I want to get this done so I can start working from home and making a second income for us. I would LOVE to be able to contribute to the finances in ways other than clipping coupons and finding deals. I want to feel like I'm helping to build a financial future for us as a family. I don't want to leave the entire financial burden on my husband.. the sooner I can help, the sooner he can get out of truck driving (fingers crossed).
Well there you have it... my goals for this year..
And my son is awake, so I guess that's the end of this entry!!
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